Tired of Life

The Fight is Too Hard

God, I am so tired. Tired of fighting, tired of feeling bad, tired of being tired, tired of being. This is worse than pain. The struggle to breathe, the uncertainty of what to do to feel better, the constant doctors and tests. I want to give up, but I can’t. It isn’t in my nature to give up. And I have no indication it is time to give up. But how do I continue to live a life that honors God when all I want to do is fade away.

The clouds don’t help. The season doesn’t help. But I am so tired. When do I get to rest?